My friend Jen gave me some really awesome advice that I believe is straight from the heart of God. She said that I am in a situation similar to a women that carries a baby in her womb only to find out she miscarried or that the child is sick and may not survive past birth. Now let me stop here and say I in no way am comparing my hurt to the death of child or implying that I am experiencing the same kind of grief of that of a mom who has held her still born child. But what Jen said and what I think is right is that God has given me THIS baby girl, whether that be only during this two month wait or whether that be as her forever family. She is mine for now. I am to love her, hurt for her and celebrate her for however long God sees fit. We will celebrate her birthday on April 24th and I will continue to show her off to anyone and everyone who cares to look at her beautiful face.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
How to move forward....
Since finding out that we could not accept the referral of the beautiful baby girl because I am not 30, I have really struggled with how to move forward. Do I continue to look at her beautiful face everyday and fall deeper and deeper in love with her? Do I continue to show her off to strangers, friends, and family? Do we celebrate her birthday on April 24th? Or do I try to forget her, put her photo away and try not to think about her anymore. WHAT DO I DO????